What Do I Do Now?

July 2014 I was told I had herpes from not 1 but 2 doctors. I was in denial and I went for the third test with a specialist. He then explained that I had tested positive for herpes type 1 and that's when it all sunk in.

I started seeing my cousins friend and one thing led to another and I let him go down on me ( oral sex ). I never in a million years would've ever thought it would happen to me. But thing is that it did now I don't know what to do.

All these years I've been waiting for the right one and I messed it all up by letting my hormones get the best of me. At first I allowed myself to become a victim and blamed him BUT then I knew it was as much as my fault than his.

Now I don't know what to do the guy who exposed me to the virus still talks to me and sometimes I think maybe he's the one I'm going to end up with? Only because I don't think I'll ever tell anyone that I've contracted this virus the only ones that know is the guy & my mom.

I've been getting support from both of them. But I still don't know if I have any other options as for dating other guys. I still haven't had sex sex & to be honest I'm terrified because I don't want to put anyone in my position.

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