Just Found Out

I'm an 18 year old girl that was just diagnosed with GH. I went to the doctor thinking something was going wrong with my UTI, what are these painful bumps, which looked like white heads? She looked at it and said "Hun, I think this is herpes".

My immediate reaction was horrible, tears streaming down my face thinking that this is the end of the world. As I was lying there, she took a culture which felt like a needle stabbing my clit. I couldn't stop crying, I went in her office and asked "you've seen this before right?" and she said yes, "do you really think that I have it"? Of course she said yes, I took a blood test shortly after that and left.

I couldn't think, I was just so upset and thought that drinking, smoking or whatever will make me numb to forget this right now. I drove all the way home bawling my eyes out.

I didn't have to wait for results because a few days before that my friend, who I had sex with about a week before my outbreak, texted me "you better get yourself checked because I think you gave me an STD".

I thought I just got checked for everything, but herpes. It's been 4 days now and all that I can think about is how disgusting and dirty I feel, and that I won't be able to live a normal life.

Just because I've made all these mistakes, I have to live around it? My child might be in danger in the future? The only people I've told is my mom and my best friend, thing is I'm scared for my brother because I guess this town is infected and the last thing I want is him going through this, he's only 17.

I feel like he's too immature to understand for me, I can't tell him. I really shouldn't be stressing but I can't help it. Honestly, if I didn't have my family, I would commit suicide right now.

I just can't see anyone being okay with this. Not happy with herpes but feels good to let it out and read other stories.

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May 22, 2013
It'll all be fine.
by: Anonymous

Recently I found out that I have HSV 1. Mine is orally. However, I am going to the doctor to make sure that is the only place that I have it. I was talking to a guy for about a month, and we talked about everything. Both of us had been tested, and both of us were clean....or so he said. I gave him oral and then 3 or 4 days later my lip was tingly and swollen. I didn't think anything of it. Well, a few days ago I noticed a bump on my lip, and I took myself to the doctor. Turns out it's herpes.

I have recently started dating an amazing man after 2yrs of being single. I was terrified to tell him, but he deserved to know. To my surprise he isn't mad, and he doesn't care. It hasn't had any effect on our relationship so far, and I'm hoping it stays that way. He said "so you'll get cold sores sometimes, big deal, it could be worse." Which is true. It could be. It's not a death sentence. I'm 21, and twice now I have broken down in front of him crying. He hugs me and tells me it'll be alright, and that he isn't going anywhere.

I've been doing a lot of research, and all herpes is, a rash caused by a virus. So look at it that way. So you get a rash down there sometimes, big deal. Things happen. I was lied to and now I have to deal with it as an adult. The longer you dwell on it, the worse you'll feel. You have to forgive yourself and move forward. I'm in the process of doing the same thing. Reading other people's comments is helping me a lot. We will all be fine :)

May 11, 2013
Surviving the Unthinkable <3
by: Nitknee

Sweetheart, I am 22 years old and was diagnosed with it a year ago. I have a very mild case of it, but my doctor had to sit me down about a month ago and said "You are normal, G.H. is more common than you think. You are not disgusting at all, you just believed someone and they let you down."

I know you will not understand or believe me about this yet, because I went through some of the same emotions, but it is not the end of the world. You will learn to live it, but DO NOT let it control you, you control it. I have found that stress will cause an outbreak. You are still young and you will live a full and amazing life, trust me. The best thing to do it schedule an appointment with your doctor, make a list of everything you want to know about G.H. and ask. Do not ever be embarrassed to ask questions. Again, I know that you will not believe it, but just breath, you will be okay. :) I have also found that this website is amazing. When I first found out a year ago, I thought I was the only one and that know one would understand, just remember, you're never alone. :)

May 09, 2013
by: Anonymous

I'm 17 And I Recently Found Out I Had GH. When My Doctor Told Me I Didn't Know What To Say. I Was Like I'm Young And About To Go To College How Could This Happen To Me? I Have A Question Though.. When Your Friend Texted You Saying You Need To Get Tested.. Has He Ever Texted You After That.?

Apr 19, 2013
It gets easier.
by: Anonymous

It's OK girl. It gets easier. Reading what you wrote about bursting into tears at the doctor's office just brought back so many memories for me. It was one of the worst days of my life. But, you know, it could always be worse. That's my motto.

Get a prescription for Vvaltrex but don't get it from the pharmacy because it's really expensive. My doctor recommended using Northwestpharmacy.com that orders your medicine from Canada for much, much cheaper. They are really nice.

You'll get through it. I've had herpes for 7 years now and I have a great boyfriend. If someone cares about you, you'll work it out. But, be honest at the beginning. It's so scary but if someone doesn't understand the courage it took for you to tell them, then they don't deserve you anyway.


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