How long before I stop feeling disgusted with myself?
I am 20 years old now. I have had HSV 2 for about one year now. I caught it from my boyfriend, who never has outbreaks and even tests negative! I had my first outbreak 3 months after we started dating. When I was told my heart broke down and I started crying when my mom asked me what was wrong. She told me that it was OK and that I should be glad that it won't kill me.
Right after, I went and told my boyfriend and immediately started crying again. My boyfriend said the same as my mom and said that it will be OK because we have each other. I always feel less than and have a crying episode every night. My ob are fairly bad because of the amount of stress that I get when thinking about it plus any outside trouble I have.
I am in college and I don't let this affect my grades, I am still doing very well. But I just want to be happy again and not feel the way I feel about myself every time I look in the mirror. Anytime I want to talk about it to my boyfriend I just feel like he doesn't understand. He doesn't have to experience the pain or change his clothes styles. I can not wear any spandex anymore, which took away from much of my clothes.