Hope Takes Us to Places We've Never Seen Before
I'm a 21 year old female who was diagnosed with herpes recently. I'm in the middle of my first and horrible outbreak (over 20 large blisters) and to make matters worse, it's mostly anally. At first hearing the news made me so depressed and dirty inside. I felt extremely isolated and alone. After a while, those feelings had subsided and now I have never been more hopeful in my life.
I never lived a healthy lifestyle and I never believed I was worth anything more than a good sexual encounter. Granted, I did always wear condoms. God took my extreme sexuality away from me to prove to me that there are other things about me to love and worth caring about.
Having herpes is showing me that I'm beautiful even when I'm wearing clothes. Before, I could never see myself settling down and getting married. I just saw myself sleeping with one guy to the next. Now, I see myself in a beautiful white dress with a man, someday, that wants to be with me for me. I look forward to meeting a sweet man who is able to accept me for who I am.
I came upon this site this morning and it gave me so much unbelievable hope. Everyone's success stories are so amazing. I do hope that someday this STI isn't so banned from conversation. Maybe then, will people think to test for it more often.
I look forward to providing myself with a more meaningful lifestyle. I couldn't see myself living without herpes anymore.