18 and Living
I was diagnosed with this disease about 3 weeks ago. When I first realized I had it, without having already being diagnosed I had break downs everyday. I was in denial, how could one pimple looking bump be herpes?? I prayed every night that that wasn't what it was. However the more I read, the more I realized how common this disease is. 1 in 4 women have this!
The problem is, no one will tell you because of the negative name society has given it. I have learned to live my life with herpes, not as it. After ten days on Valtrex my outbreak has cleared. Of course everyday that I have to take my medication I think of how I do have HSV 2, but I also have a life, and this will now just be a part of living.
I do actually believe that this disease has come in a blessing in disguise for me. I was used to getting drunk and having sex with my ex-boyfriend, who slept around with God knows who. I had completely lost self worth for myself. And how could I not after I was raped twice. Now I realize, that with this disease I will someday find a man that ACTUALLY loves me.
I am happy with myself, I know now that I deserve so much more that I let myself believe. Don't lose hope, and stop fighting something that can't be changed. You deserve a life no matter what you have to fight to have one. Love always.