Years of Sexual Abuse
I am 20 years old and was diagnosed with herpes a few days ago.
I am scared out of my mind bc it feels like a death sentence and I have nobody to talk to about it.
Since I was old enough to remember (maybe 8 or 9) I was sexually abused by my mother's long term bf.
I tried talking to my mother but nothing changed and she didn't leave him, so when I got the chance to flee from her house I did, which was about 16 years old.
I am now in college and I was trying to leave these painful memories behind me but I had an outbreak and I was diagnosed with herpes.
I know it has to be from those years of sexual abuse bc I haven't had a bf or sexual interactions since.
I'm usually really strong but I find myself breaking down ever since I was diagnosed.
Taking my innocence was enough but now I have to live every day knowing that I contracted an STD that has no cure, and not by choice.
I feel like life isn't fair and now my whole future has to change because nobody will want me now.
It's really not fair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't talk to my mother, I have no friends that I am close with to talk to, so I'm suffering in silence while trying to help everyone else with their problems.
Any advice or positive words?