Living with Herpes
by Chiara
I had chills, sweats, nausea.. your run of the mill flu like symptoms. Upon that, my down there was stingy and raw with white bumps. My boyfriend drove me down to the clinic and I was almost immediately diagnosed with herpes. I started to sob uncontrollably and the doctor kept telling me that it could have happened to anyone. I kept telling myself, "BUT WHY THE HELL DID IT HAPPEN TO ME?!?!?!!?" Most of all, I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die. Growing up in the Christian values, I was told that only sluts and sinners contracted STDs. I felt ugly, immoral, and disgusting. My boyfriend denied that it was him who gave me an STD. For months, even years I've been furious at him. I'm still in the healing process but I'm a lot better than I was before. For months, I would cry myself to sleep. But I'd like to think that because of this, I'm a stronger person. I'm more understanding, compassionate, and full of conviction. This site helps me a lot and I know it'll help others too. To any person new to reading this: DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF FOR THIS. What the doctors say is true.. it could happen to ANYONE. We're just the lucky ones who got blessed. You are still beautiful and lovely as ever. You deserve to be loved and cared for. Also, I've forgiven my boyfriend (the forgiveness wasn't for him but mostly for myself). He's been there for me through it all (even the worst parts). I love you. |
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"THANK YOU SO MUCH for this site. I THINK I will get a clean bill of health in terms of the scare I had but your site was THE BEST site I have come across in my madness to get information."- DJ from Canada
"Hi Gary, God bless you for making this website! I have decided after years of having herpes to stop hiding, and learn how to be honest. Thank you for being here." Gayle from USA
"I want to thank you for offering me the comfort and hope I so need right now. So many sites are filled with doom and gloom but yours broke this condition and all of the issues involved with it down to a point where I feel I can live with herpes and have a good life. After about three hours on the web I was in tears, until I found your site. I can not thank you enough." - Joy from USA
"thanks for putting this website up. I was diagnosed about a month ago and am still going through the emotional ups and downs from it.was nice to see you talked about things normally instead of in a clinical way. I still worry that I will never find the love of my life because of this now..but I just hope I'm being silly in thinking that. either way your website helped, so thanks :)" - Sarah from New York
