Just Found Out
I'm an 18 year old girl that was just diagnosed with GH. I went to the doctor thinking something was going wrong with my UTI, what are these painful bumps, which looked like white heads? She looked at it and said "Hun, I think this is herpes".
My immediate reaction was horrible, tears streaming down my face thinking that this is the end of the world. As I was lying there, she took a culture which felt like a needle stabbing my clit. I couldn't stop crying, I went in her office and asked "you've seen this before right?" and she said yes, "do you really think that I have it"? Of course she said yes, I took a blood test shortly after that and left.
I couldn't think, I was just so upset and thought that drinking, smoking or whatever will make me numb to forget this right now. I drove all the way home bawling my eyes out.
I didn't have to wait for results because a few days before that my friend, who I had sex with about a week before my outbreak, texted me "you better get yourself checked because I think you gave me an STD".
I thought I just got checked for everything, but herpes. It's been 4 days now and all that I can think about is how disgusting and dirty I feel, and that I won't be able to live a normal life.
Just because I've made all these mistakes, I have to live around it? My child might be in danger in the future? The only people I've told is my mom and my best friend, thing is I'm scared for my brother because I guess this town is infected and the last thing I want is him going through this, he's only 17.
I feel like he's too immature to understand for me, I can't tell him. I really shouldn't be stressing but I can't help it. Honestly, if I didn't have my family, I would commit suicide right now.
I just can't see anyone being okay with this. Not happy with herpes but feels good to let it out and read other stories.