Curves, Nerves and Perves

by Lauren
(Madison, New Jersey)

Just found out this morning that I have herpes.


I'm angry, upset and almost relieved. I don’t know when I got it or from who. I don’t know how far in partners I have to go back. How many people do I have to tell? I know this happens to a lot of people, I know it is not my fault, but I should have known better.

YET

For as far as I know 23 hours herpies positive... and I have laughed over 15 times today. That’s got to mean something.

Be around the people that love you.

The people that could care less that you have this.

And maybe tell the people you have been with. And try not to kill them :). I know I am going to live a happy, exciting and fulfilled life and maybe it’s because this has changed me or maybe it’s despite how it has changed me.

I'm scared.

But I now can't imagine myself without it.

I don’t think I should have to hide it. My mother says I should. I should keep it under wraps. No one needs to know except if you are being intimate. But for some reason I want a shirt that says "I HAVE HERPES" on the front and "DO YOU?" on the back. I’ll get over being scared but I will always remember this day as a very odd positive (in a few aspects) day filled with love and compassion.

So my advice: get up off this computer, go outside, grab someone you love and go for a walk and tell them. The more you say it the better it will sound. Its part of you now like a tattoo or a pet.

Your life is more than this.

Live above this, not under this!

P.S

Stop looking at herpes pictures. Just look at your own if you want to see it so bad :) Night. I love you all smile one for me.

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Jul 15, 2014
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You make me laugh
by: Nick

I needed that. Thanks for sharing. I think that t-shirt thing is a great idea. Be well.


Jul 08, 2014
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You are awesome
by: Anonymous

I love your article, and attitude. I think you are so right and very strong. It has influenced my way of thinking, and definitely cheered me up. Just so, everyone knows laughter really is the best medicine. It actually makes your immune system stronger.

We are all stronger than we think.


Feb 03, 2012
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i have herpes..do you?
by: Anonymous

I LOVE your t-shirt idea. It's time to erase the stigma and share the truth. There is nothing to be ashamed of. It is just the law of probability and it can happen to anyone!


Jan 13, 2012
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Thank you
by: Anonymous

Thank you for sharing your positive attitude and helping me laugh. Love, light, and happiness to everyone.


Oct 27, 2011
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Thank you!!
by: Anonymous

Thank you so much for posting this! I was diagnosed yesterday as well and I cried at first but relieved that I have medicine to help with the pain! The pain was so horrible I couldn't walk. I'm not ready to tell people yet but after reading this it has helped a lot! Thank you!


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